7.31.2009

i call this one "to stray from the path"

He walks

He believes

He relaxes

Just like a normal man

He dances

He works

He plays

Livin’ fast he can

‘Til he met that boy

Who took him to the river

Hold his head under the water

Told him to rethink

Taught him how to touch the sky

Now all he can do

Is think ‘bout what he’s learned

He sits

He doubts

He panics

‘Cause that boy put ideas in his head

He trembles

He shakes

He shudders

Knowin’ that he’s been lied to

People tellin’ him who to be

Now he don’ know what to do

Except sit,

And doubt,

And wonder what would happen

If he chose another way

‘Cause that boy put ideas in his head

And damned if he’ll forget

How to touch the sky

7.27.2009

drugs

When I'm doped up on drugs post-wisdom-tooth-removal, I am a self-proclaimed DMB expert. I really wish I had video. Mom said I was pretty entertaining. However, drugs get less fun as time goes by. Vicodin + Anesthetic + Antibiotics = recipe for the pukeys. Yuck.

7.20.2009

jerry

Whilst leaving the hospital after leaving my Papa (he fell, broke 9 ribs, collapsed a lung, and fractured his pelvis in two places) my mom and I noticed a small bird attempting to fly in the parking garage. He was clearly exhausted and possibly hurt. Which was upsetting. Being the animal lovers we are, we decided to rescue him. After all, Pontiac is not the best place for goldfinches to be. The security guard lady, who noticed us staring and deciding what to do with Jerry (I named him Jerry), said that one of the assholes who worked as a guard was walking around, knocking down nests. Mom literally walked up behind him, picked him up, and put him in the box. He looked similar to this: I sat in the back seat of the car and making an honest attempt to keep him from trying to fly. Loose bird in the car...not exactly ideal. He eventually fell asleep in my hand. When we arrived home, I went tromping through the neighborhood looking for a cage so that we could feed him and keep him safe until he could fly. He then pooped in my hand. To be fair, he tried to be courteous but I was holding him and making sure he didn't get caught by a cat. Walking back to the house with a cage, Jerry decided that he could fly and perched himself about ten feet up in a tree on the side of the house. I was quite sad to see him go, but I suppose LOtown is a better spot to grow up that Pontiac. Right?

7.19.2009

dreams do come true!

So, given that I have no life beyond working, watching The Office, and playing Nazi Zombies with the cool kids, I spent some time reading IMDB chat boards on The L Word. Come to find out, one of my favorite characters that entered pretty late in the show is most definitely a very hot lesbian. Clementine Ford. Random blog, I know. But you can find out some awesome information on the World Wide Web. I really don't know why I find her so attractive. I'm just sayin'.

7.15.2009

and we looked at them eleven ways

I really envy people who can brush off all of the little things that happen to them and walk with their head held high, never doubting themselves. I wish that I knew how to be like that. I want to be able to handle problems and not question myself the second that the decision is made. There are few circumstances in which I have made a decision and not questioned it. The way that I handled the situation with Hannah was something I questioned for weeks. I honestly thought about writing her and begging for a second chance at friendship. But yesterday I realized how right my decision was. Her moving out of the dorm and cutting off all contact with me was the best thing that has ever happened. She was a horrible friend to me and a terrible, shallow, narcissistic, pathetic excuse for a human being. I feel nothing but sadness and pity for her knowing that she is stuck "in the closet" like that and has sunk so low that she outs me to other people and tries to make herself look like the victim. It's humorous and, in the end, I rise from the burning ashes that was once our friendship a better person.

7.14.2009

"Prayer in the Pentagon" by Robert Dederick

Nine planets, Sir, endlessly circle, Sir, one yellow star among Sir's galaxies: Pluto Neptune Venus Jupiter Saturn Uranus Mercury Mars and this- this watered and this aired this favored one where all that crawl and swim and fly and run that drove and swarm and herd and flock are in with tooth and leg and lung and claw and fin created clothed and colored are by Sir Eight colors (counting white) Sir's rainbow makes when whiteness on Sir's broken waters breaks arched over tidal blue and branching gray and grazing green and foaling brown down and away with gorsing yellow glow and honeyed hay and petalled blush and mottled winging whir; the limpid eyes each of Sir's colors wakes dark-irised are and cleared and curved by Sir Seven tossing seas Sir's pent-up lands divide where silver shoals in aching green-ness glide turn suddenly and dart and flatly lie break surface plunge and from each other hide and stare as though by staring they aver what sweet surprise had widened each wide eye that once looked early on creating Sir Six senses there were then in us who were salt-tasting all along the salt-scented shore who felt crust cool and looked on shrinking sea and heard gull-cry on draining estuary and found back of these five a something more a sense of self and back of self--Sir Five fingers though (counting a thumb) were what we mostly were aware of as we fought Sir's elements and cleared Sir's forests and sought creation-wise new metalled ways to go by spinning wheel and wing off runway. So? Four quarters of our world began to grow too few and of Sir's yellow star we thought equations scribbled bubbled in retort distilled its hot explosive secrets. So? Three questions pose themselves now as we wait: did Sir not know how to end what Sir began? Or could we choose? Or did Sir always plan? Two hands of ours to bring us soon or late bent to destroy what the hands of Sir had wrought One day when we and all our world are brought to Nought?

7.09.2009

eyebrows

Everybody has 'em, everybody looks weird without them. Do not draw them on. Please and thank you.

7.07.2009

strange things are happenin'

I'm in a really odd place in my life right now. I feel strange and awkward and like I don't know what to do with myself. Honestly, it's like being back in middle school. Only I already have boobs.

7.06.2009

jump on it

Why is it that I can't just be done with other people's stuff? Things I don't need to worry about or deal with are constantly worming their way through my brain, blocking out any other possible thoughts. You live and you learn.

7.03.2009

she gonna teach me how to swim

That's right, three posts, one evening..er, early morning. I'm wired. This is the first day in what feels like forever that I don't have to wake up at 9am to work out and go to work all day. No complaints, I'm making decent money, but it's exhausting. But today is July 4th, and it's BBQ time. Fireworks and good times with good friends. I'm really looking forward to the next few days and the rest of the summer. Despite the hardships of this past week, life really does not get any better than this. "Fact: Bears eat beats. Bears. Beats. Battlestar Galactica." "Identity theft is not a joke, Jim!" Yeah, I'm addicted to The Office.

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summertime, summertime

I cannot believe I haven't posted in so long. I guess it's just been a crazy week. I've need to write about a million and one different things, but never found the time. To sum it up briefly, family drama sucks, haircuts are okay, and I suck at poker. I'm cutting any and all drama from my life. NJani is here...permanently, I hope! Central is quickly approaching and I'm pumped. Plans to go to MQT feel through, and I am wicked bummed. NJani and Kristine and I hit the mall for some "non-shopping"..I got a cool shirt. This also happened: Gotta love it. Also, new haircut. I think I like it.