everyday should be a good day to die.

It's been a while. I know this. But there's good reason. I'll start with today and move backwards. Started out as an average day. Having been wicked busy lately, I finally had a day to sleep in my own bed, take some meds (I've been sick), and sleep until whenever I wanted. After a lazy day, I did the dishes for mom and planned on cleaning my room and job hunting. That's when my sister got a phone call. Her friend Jackie's father had been in an accident and pronounced dead on the scene. It was unexpected. He was outside working when his metal ladder touched a power line and he was electrocuted. I can't even begin to imagine what she must be going through. I wish I could do something to help her or make her feel better. This does, however, shine a new light on life for me. How long this new attitude will last, I don't know. But I realize that life is short and, well, you have to appreciate it while you've got it. "what if God shuffled by one day we might say we're angry not afraid like breathing just to breathe that we might find some reason but there's much to go round that's what's wrong with the world don't lose the dreams inside your head they're only there until you're dead dream" -- You Never Know by DMB On a lighter note: I am now 19. I spent my birthday with good friends and had a really amazing time. I'm truly thankful for my friends and my family. I've also been job hunting and spending a lot of money that I know I shouldn't be. I'm seriously, honestly going to try and live a better, healthier, more open lifestyle from now on. Side note: There's a Pride Festival...party...thing in Ferndale this summer. I'm soooo going.

madness

The Wings are up 2-1 in the series. This is good. Game today at 3pm, we should be back on our toes after Friday's loss. Then Game 5, and it's over. Then on to Pittsburgh. On other news, the camp job is out. I chickened out. Two grand would be nice, but that's my entire summer. Maybe next year? Check out the band Uh Huh Her. Kick ass.

workin' with kids?

Today I had lunch with my mom and this little boy named Zac, whom she works with. Zac's teacher, Omar, started telling me about this camp that he works at during the summer. Long story short, there's a good chance I'll be working as a counselor at this camp for kids with special needs. It should be a spectacular opportunity and I'm quite excited. I just hope that everything works out. More details later.

a million things

Today started out well enough. I was in a spectacular mood. I worked out; twice. I got a job offer. And I had a million things to rant and ramble about on here. But now it's around 9pm and I have a terrible migraine and I can't remember anything I wanted to say. Other than: I really, really, really want to pull my brain out of my head, wash it off, and put it back in. I think that would help things. French toast tomorrow? I think so. I'm also going to look into my tattoos, aka getting them drawn up and priced, in the next few days. There are a few places I can go. I'm not sure which I like best just yet.

talking to myself

I keep telling myself to stop caring. It's really not working. I wish I could post something more than a few vague sentences but there really isn't anything to say.

branching out

This months playlist is a little more...fun? I don't know. I branched out a bit. Still playing some of that indie folk/rock kind of awesomeness but there's something new in there too. Fun stuff to rock out in the car with. Check it.

The city streets were crowded and I felt like I would die.

I keep falling back into old habits. I don't like it.

one year

If you had said to me that, one year from now, this is how my life would be I'd have punched you in the face. It's pretty crazy to think about, in all reality.

welcome to central

Monday, I signed the lease. It's official. I'll be living in an apartment with Kristine, Ilene, and Leah next year (the KILL Aparment LOLZ). Pretty exciting. Also, listen to An Horse. Good music.

ooh yeah, all you got it me

Today, I have know witty quip about escalators, nor do I have some lame gripe about not having "The One" in my life right now. I just would like to say that I am excited for Central. I sign the lease on Monday and things get official. Life is good.

wake up call

I love waking up with texts like this: "I'm so glad I have you in my life. Thanks for being there." It's a good feeling.